stuDYING

There are days you think, “Hey, I’ve done pretty well” and then there are others which…you know, just suck and the only reasonable thing to do seems to be a *headdesk*. Everybody has gone through it. Some fail but well, there are people with a degree or diploma or whatever. So probably it will be fine. Hopefully. Right?   

Encouraged by a successful day – one which you can confidently pat yourself on the back about– you come to think, mistakenly, that from that point on every day will be like that one… just so you know, it won’t be. The time and energy you’ve saved and the progress you’ve made will be wasted so quickly that you barely notice it disappearing. 

Maybe on the next day – after your successful one – you will be able to keep up with the pace. But then >>>BOOM<<<. You sit. You stare – yeah, staring is by far my favourite. You drink. You eat. You stretch. You cry. You stare some more. You burn your book (or are dangerously close to doing so). You examine a plain white wall. You watch other people. You study your nails. You dream about a good lunch. You dully look down at a page full of some random letters. You doodle. You stare for a change. You wander around. You bury your face in your hands. You feel like every time you read a new sentence it sucks out a piece of information you’ve already learned. And at the peak of your despair the famous headdesk comes. You slowly arrive at the stage where you accept your failure to study even one more sentence. No. Just no. Not going to happen today. And you know what? It’s better to accept it than to fight it because otherwise you just grow even more frustrated with yourself and that would make your counterproductive day even worse. Then you couldn’t go on. 

So don’t punish yourself. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Everyone deserves a break (not a long one, though). Take it easy. Relax. Don’t stress. But… be sure not to mess up one of the most important exams you need for your degree. But again – no pressure!